Sunday, October 9, 2011
Everything feels like I am inside whirlwind. Things are happening so fast and just whooshing and sweeping in and picking me up and throwing me about. But I don't feel hurt or scared - I feel like I'm flying! Soaring! There are so many things I am learning and beginning to understand. I don't feel confused and stressed, I feel relief! I feel like I don't have to search and contort myself to try and understand - I don't have to reinvent the wheel anytime I want to understand God. Its been done. He has established it all. It is there for any and all to know and understand. And its incredible. I can't get into everything because I am certainly not an expert, but I cant tell you this journey that I am on - learning history, learning the Word of God, praying to Him in earnesty and knowing that there are so many praying for me and my family, and that one of them is the mother of my Lord, my Holy Mother, who cared enough about me to seek me out and draw me closer to her Son and My God, its an incredible feeling. I don't know where I will be in a year. I don't know everything and I don't claim to. But I do know that more has been revealed to me in the past week spiritually, than has happened in my entire life - and its because I am NOT leaning on my own understanding, but on the promises of God that His truth and His church will continue forever, and that even the gates of hell can not prevail against it. I am finally beginning to know what it feels like for my yoke to be easy and my burden light. It is an amazing feeling!